Approximately one month ago I went to Gold Coast with a heavy heart.
I know I shouldn't but can't help it. ;(
Just when I thought I can never felt this low in life, something awful struck in a sudden.
Naturally, in such situation, one would break down and cry with all his/her heart.
But I resisted my falling tears, for whatsoever reason, ego perhaps? escapism maybe?
Until I was told that it's okay to cry, to feel grief and to show one's weakness.
After all, we are human beings, we should act humanly.
Even it had been a while, I still feel weird talking about it.
Perhaps I am just too coward to face the reality, so naive to assume that by evading the issues might help in forgetting them. Utter stupidity!
Well, I didn't wanted to talk about my feeling (except to some close friends), and I still don't feel comfortable talking about it here.
But I know I will have to deal with it. ;( The old granny's saying : Life moves on! ;((
Meanwhile, my deepest appreciation and gratitude to those who had showed their love and care!
It's beyond words to describe how much the warmth and comfort words meant to me!
As time draws closer to the end of 2009, I truly hope that it will be a better year ahead, not only for me but for everybody. *keep my fingers crossed
p/s: Yesterday was a bad night! ;( But at least I felt human. It's okay for me to be angry! Couldn't remember when was the last time I let my anger lost control!
I know I shouldn't but can't help it. ;(
Just when I thought I can never felt this low in life, something awful struck in a sudden.
Naturally, in such situation, one would break down and cry with all his/her heart.
But I resisted my falling tears, for whatsoever reason, ego perhaps? escapism maybe?
Until I was told that it's okay to cry, to feel grief and to show one's weakness.
After all, we are human beings, we should act humanly.
Even it had been a while, I still feel weird talking about it.
Perhaps I am just too coward to face the reality, so naive to assume that by evading the issues might help in forgetting them. Utter stupidity!
Well, I didn't wanted to talk about my feeling (except to some close friends), and I still don't feel comfortable talking about it here.
But I know I will have to deal with it. ;( The old granny's saying : Life moves on! ;((
Meanwhile, my deepest appreciation and gratitude to those who had showed their love and care!
It's beyond words to describe how much the warmth and comfort words meant to me!
As time draws closer to the end of 2009, I truly hope that it will be a better year ahead, not only for me but for everybody. *keep my fingers crossed
p/s: Yesterday was a bad night! ;( But at least I felt human. It's okay for me to be angry! Couldn't remember when was the last time I let my anger lost control!
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