Where are we heading to

When I was much younger I had a secret dream of becoming a writer, a dream which slowly slip away as I grow elder ( i refuse the word older). So much i hate admitting the fact, but a true writer is those who are born with the talent. And clearly I am not one of those. :( this is a talent i would die to have. (not a bad idea, isnt it? next life. LOL) I have been thinking alot lately. More than I ever had. the past and the future. (present kinda sucks so must avoid) and i realized how naive i had been.(back then, who isn't?) At the same time, i miss those good old days when happiness seems to be so much easier. Those were the days when we frowned over things like: tuition, homework, (assignments make me miss homework so much :( ) school exams, school rules (long nails and over-length hair wtf) and many more. The best part is still childhood! when an ice-cream, a handful of candies, kites and no homework can make me SMILE so wide that you can see my crooked teeth.
So much so I miss those good old days, i still look forward for the future, i still wonder a lot, i still dream of it.
Sometimes I wish I had a remote control for time so I could easily fast-forward, pause, rewind time according to my preference. Such ambitious wish i know.
I wish i could be cleverer. I wish i could be prettier. I wish i could have more wisdom to resist. I wish i could have more money. I wish whatever i wish would come true.
I wish i do not wish for so many wishes. I wish there is an easier way out. :(